you are poison.

Recently I'm questioning what I actually want to do with myself.
I cannot believe it's nearly the end of the first year in college.
The appraisals are coming up.
It's then we will be told how we're doing and if we are going to be aloud back next year.
I'd like to think I have no reason to believe that I won't be aloud back.
Okay, there's been times when I've been out right mean to people. But that's not entirely my fault. Eye for an eye makes the whole world blind. This is so true. It's not what you think though, when someone makes you feel like your not good enough. Why should someone get the right to belittle you and treat you like your some dumb kid? Who gave them power over me? They have nothing to do with me. I'm not surprised with the way they act that so many people dislike them. How do they expect to make friends with attitudes like that?
Dirt. that's what they are. Common filth.
Which leads me to my next point.
Do I really want to go back next year?
I mean it's been so good, one hell of a roller coaster.
My focus now is on getting a nice summer job.
One that gets me out there.
That way I can get more money for my holiday in August.
Which I'm excited about btw.

Your the laughter that dries my tears.