my own worst enemy.

It's always the same.

I get something good and i can't help myself but too mess it up some how.

I don't mean to do it.

I think it's my sub conscious.

something telling me I don't deserve all these good things that are happening.

or maybe it's that I'm afraid of putting too much in, and ending up with nothing.

I just hope this time things stay the way they are.

Because everything is just so right at the moment.

And he's top of my list.

I rather do like you alot.

Sometimes I wonder if love is worth fighting for, Then I think of you, and I am ready for war

if we never experience sadness and broken hearts then we would never know the joys of being happy and the true feeling of love, so i suppose its good to be sad and hurt once in a while..

you've just got to keep your chin up in the bad times and look forward to when your luck comes in.

I have had my fair share of the bad times,

for ages i felt lost and alone, even though i was surrounded by people.

It's amazing how one person can make you feel like that when you think the world of them.

Funny how they can take all the confidence out of you.

then something can change in a split second that can change the way you look at someone.

i realise now how much better i feel.

how much better i am doing for myself as i've got the people i really care about and who care about me back.

i'm not going to waste my time on people who aren't worth it or don't treat me right.

Because i'm giving up on settling.

too many times in the past i have just put up with what people are like because i don't want to lose them.

But are they worth keeping if i have to settle for their behaviour?

I know what I want and i'm not going to go for anything or anyone less then that.

The people in my life right now are worth it and i plan on keeping it this way.

It's getting over the bad times, which make the good times so good.

lets watch the world go by.

It's funny when you find out what people really think.

When you find out what people are really like.

Because I give people my everything, but then when they decide; they throw it back in my face.

But do you know what?

I don't care any more.

Because at the moment, I am so happy.

kick back and enjoy the sun.

take my hand, we can do this together.

It's been a while since I've written.

To be quite honest I forgot about this blog till a few days ago,

But a lot has happened in the last five months.

I've grown up, made choices and had a brilliant time on the way.

There are so many amazing people around me right now who I wouldn't trade for the world.

I seem to be meeting more and more on a daily basis recently.

And to be honest, I really enjoy it!

Is happiness too much to ask for?

Day 4. evaluate. over and out.

That's it.

All my work is done.

I've completed my mood board, chosen my show reel and even finished my website.

I found this all quite simple to complete and took it one step at a time.

I liked this assignment as now I have something I can use to easily show people what work I have done and to what standard.

However, if i could change anything, I would go back and add some video's which I have recorded and edited together. I didn't add these first time around as I was unable to get hold of copies of them.

Day 3, it's nearly over.

Today I started to create my website.

I used istop on mac. I hadn't used this before so thought i would give it a go.

I came up with the basic idea and layout i wanted my website to have.

It had to be simple, yet keep people interested.

Because of this I chose to only have a few pages.

One for the main page, one for my bio, one for my pictures/show reel then a final one for my contact information.

I arranged my pictures on to the website so it not only looked tidy but also showed a range of my art work.

my bio is short and sweet. It's too the point. Because I haven't done any major work that I can include or anything people would need to know regarding my work. Therefore I felt it was unnecessary to add anything else.

I am pleased with how my website is laid out and how it ended up.

Day two of college life in Rachel's lessons.

My show reel is shown on my website.

The pictures I chose are all ones I have completed in and out of school.

I chose these ones specifically because I think they show a range of my skills and how many different types of materials i am able to use.

You can see from some of the pictures that they pop art inspired.

I also chose these ones as I get told they are the best, therefore I want to show people my best work.