Sunday, 17 July 2011

my own worst enemy.

It's always the same.
I get something good and i can't help myself but too mess it up some how.
I don't mean to do it.
I think it's my sub conscious.
something telling me I don't deserve all these good things that are happening.
or maybe it's that I'm afraid of putting too much in, and ending up with nothing.
I just hope this time things stay the way they are.
Because everything is just so right at the moment.
And he's top of my list.

I rather do like you alot.

Thursday, 7 July 2011

Sometimes I wonder if love is worth fighting for, Then I think of you, and I am ready for war

if we never experience sadness and broken hearts then we would never know the joys of being happy and the true feeling of love, so i suppose its good to be sad and hurt once in a while..
you've just got to keep your chin up in the bad times and look forward to when your luck comes in.
I have had my fair share of the bad times,
for ages i felt lost and alone, even though i was surrounded by people.
It's amazing how one person can make you feel like that when you think the world of them.
Funny how they can take all the confidence out of you.
then something can change in a split second that can change the way you look at someone.
i realise now how much better i feel.
how much better i am doing for myself as i've got the people i really care about and who care about me back.
i'm not going to waste my time on people who aren't worth it or don't treat me right.
Because i'm giving up on settling.
too many times in the past i have just put up with what people are like because i don't want to lose them.
But are they worth keeping if i have to settle for their behaviour?
I know what I want and i'm not going to go for anything or anyone less then that.
The people in my life right now are worth it and i plan on keeping it this way.
It's getting over the bad times, which make the good times so good.