just to let off the steam..

I can't be bothered with this any more.

I'm such a friggin push over.

I don't know if r when people are taking advantage of me.

Like why should I sit around waiting for you to tell me what I'm doing?

I don't have to!

UGHGH!

I've plenty of other things I could be doing other then waiting on your beck and call.

The sad part is that this isn't about any one in particular because everyone seems to be doing it.

I always give to anyone.

Ask me to do something, more then likely I'l say yes.

Just to keep everyone else happy.

I'm fed up of it!

I'm told that I'm to vulnerable.

The sad part is, I think they might just be right.

Rant over.

this kind of certainty comes but once in a lifetime.

I've kissed a guy.

I've kissed guys.

But this one, he's special. there's that thing.

That moment when you kiss someone and everything around you becomes hazy,

the only thing in focus is you and that person.

I feel so lucky that I've found it and scared that I'l lose it all at the same time.

You the only person that can make my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.

Because I love you without knowing how, why or even were from.

Love is passion, an obsession, it's someone you simply can not live without.

Let yourself fall head over heels.

If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with?

We all have the opportunity to find someone who we can love like crazy and who'l love you back the same way.

Sadly only a majority of us choose to forget our heads and listen to our hearts.

To make the journey and not fall in love, well you haven't lived life at all.

You have to try.

You are what I never knew I always wanted.

can you keep a secret?

I'm a bit on the fence.

One minuet I'l think one thing, then another the next.

And it's all about peoples opinions.

I don't know why I listen to some people sometimes.

They say all the wrong things at the wrong time.

But then it could be a day were I feel great!

When it takes just one person to turn around and say wow you look beautiful today.

That's why I've decided to make it my aim to give a compliment to someone three times a day.

Just to give someone that little lift which could really make their day.

I miss you.

the big 70.

My 70th blog.

So much to say and in such a little space.

I can't believe it's the middle of July already!

Not much longer till i'l be on holiday.

Nearly 2 weeks with him.

You could say I'm looking forward to it.

Quite a bit. :)

Nerd Herd.

walk with me and i'l tell you a story.

I find it quite hard to say what I want or think.

Before I moved I was really close with a few brilliant people.

And before I moved it was all about 'yeah we will defiantly keep in touch'

But that never happens does it.

Your always busy or to tied up.

I'm just as bad though.

I still get a bit upset when I think about what I left behind.

Sure here I have some pretty good friends who I wouldn't trade for anything and a pretty darn amazing boyfriend, but I'l always remember the nights in with the girls, the parties, the mornings after.. and even the random trips to Tesco in the middle of the night.

But there all memories that I can keep.

It's not like I can't keep in touch with everyone.

Every now and again I like to catch up and they ask me what I've been up to.

I know they'l always be there for me.

But ultimately, I'm glad I moved.

That's hard to say, but I like to believe that it's true.

It's time to make some new memories. And I want you to be in them.

if it was up to me.

I prefer to spend time with those who make me happy.

Not with those who I feel I have to impress constantly.

I've always been ridiculously intent on pleasing the people who I dislike the most and those who don't particularly like me.

I just think, what's the point?

I don't have time to waste on people who I don't like.

People who really get on my nerves.

From now on I'm going to forget about trying to please everyone else and look after me.

And of course whoever else I think deserves it.

Shoot for the moon, even if you miss you'l land between the stars.

two can keep a secret/

i can't be anything without you.

A month todaaay!

Then i'l be jetting off far away for 12 days.

So that's 12 days of sun sun sun!

No that I'm going to need much more of it.

One day out in my back garden and i end up burning.

BUT! i didn't wear suncream and in a few days it will go a nice tanny colour.

Which is a good thing.

So if I wear my suncream on holiday no more burning and more tan!

Fed up of being white.

White is for winter.

The one part i'm not particularly looking forward to is the whole 'oh it's so hot i must wear less clothes'

But i'l get over it.

It wouldn't be bad if i was going on holiday with my mum and mark,

They don't really look at me and go 'ugh'.

So their okay.

But mm yeah.

Who knowsss

I can't wait to go personallly

Not much longer left now!

road to nowhere.

Superficial.

Sometimes I think that's all it is.

Over exaggerated, shallow and false.

I'm fed up of people like this.

I don't have time for you.

Get over yourselves.

it's all about me.

I want to be happy forever.

I want things to be simpler.

I want pretty dresses.

I want places to go.

I want to go to Ireland.

I want to go to New Zealand.

I want high high heels.

I want enough bags to fill a room.

I want to know my who entire family are.

I want to be amazing.

I want thicker hair.

I want to be loved.

I want to feel special.

I want to be held tight and never let go.

I want to fall asleep in your arms.

I want someone who will count down to when they will see me next.

I want someone who doesn't want me to leave them.

I want to have a party every weekend.

I want all the money in the world.

I want to see my old friends again.

I want a tan.

I want to be with you all the time.

I want to have a duvet day.

I want to live in a pretty house.

I want everything.