Maybe I am going to give up on romance just for the time being. Not that I want to. It's just I don't seem to be getting anywere. I'm to I suppose afraid (is afraid the right word?) to tell people how I feel. The fear of regection and getting shunned down is too great in my mind. I know I shouldn't care but I do. I think highley of every single person I know.
The thing is, even though others around me may talk and discuss each other, i'm just as bad. I join in and share my opinon on that person over there or maybe even you once in a while. Excpet deep down, actualy not even deep down. On topof everything I think every person I know is amazing. They really can do anything if they put their minds to it and I admire them for that.
I think I have enough confidence. Certinaly more then I had last year thats for sure.
But self confidence is were I lose it a little. I hope what other people think of me isn't as bad as I think it must be.
The main thing i've learnt living here is not everyone is what they seem at first glance. You have to take time to look at them deeper. That person who seems cocky and confident is actualy sweet and kind. The one over there who doesn't say very much has a strong opinion on everything.
Basical what i'm saying is hopefully over time i'l learn to love myself more and try and accept peoples own vies of me. Not that I know what they are.
Do I even want to know tho?
I'd hate to be the fly on the wall when people are talking about me. But then maybe I shouldn't think that way?
What if they really say nice things about me and he feels the same way I do?
I'l never know if I keep it all locked up too myself.
Maybe one day i'l share my secrets with you.
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